The Road To Anhedonia

(First-take recording of a song I wrote a couple months ago.  Lyrics after the jump.)

On the road to Anhedonia

An apathetic thoroughfare

Didn't stop to smell the roses

Lacked the energy to care

All my passion was exhausted

Out the tailpipe of my car

And my will to keep on going

Could only push me on so far

On the road to Anhedonia

My chassis creaks with pain

And the spark plugs just aren't sparking

In the engine of my brain

Though my turn signals are working

No off ramps are in sight

Though my hands are on the wheel

I couldn't turn it if I tried

My hazard lights are flashing

My distributor cap's gone

My tires are all leaking

The 'Check Engine' light is on

My tank is almost empty

I'm running out of breath

Down the road to Anhedonia

Just coasting on what's left

On the road to Anhedonia

The colors are all gray

And signposts only point out things

I'll pass along the way

The gearshift's stuck in neutral

The transmission won't reverse

And the seat belt holds me tighter

As the trip keeps getting worse

On the road to Anhedonia

And I don't like it much

Not a thing to be accomplished

By letting out the clutch

The rear view mirror only shows

The things I've left behind

And I just go on driving

As the pistons start to grind

My hazard lights are flashing

My distributor cap's gone

My tires are all leaking

The 'Check Engine' light is on

My tank is almost empty

I'm running out of breath

Down the road to Anhedonia

Just coasting on what's left

The road to Anhedonia

Is all valleys, and no peaks

My joy and hope escaped me

Like a radiator leak

And all the things I used to like

And used to do to please

Left behind on dirty pavement

Bleeding out like antifreeze

On the road to Anhedonia

The dreams are buried deep

Under asphalt smoothed by lethargy

And failure eased by sleep

The odometer keeps turning

Though it may be quite a while

Before it understands there's no point

Measuring the miles

My hazard lights are flashing

My distributor cap's gone

My tires are all leaking

The 'Check Engine' light is on

My tank is almost empty

I'm running out of breath

Down the road to Anhedonia

Just coasting on what's left

Down the road to Anhedonia

Just coasting on what's left

On the road to Anhedonia

The future's comin' fast

To lives built on avoidance

And on things that cannot last

On practices we can't sustain

And values we can't find

At speeds that we cannot maintain

As we're driving blind.